Layla's Birthday was a blast!

Thank you for all that wished Layla a Happy 1st Birthday! We had such a wonderful time seeing everybody who came!! We even had a couple surprise visits! It was a perfect day!

There were two people that could not make it that I kept thinking about all day but I kept myself busy so I wouldn't lose it. Nancy is in my thoughts everyday but on Layla's Birthday I missed her so much!! Another, special person I was thinking about was a high school friend of mine whom I still hang out with once in awhile. I received a call last week that her Mother passed away from battling breast cancer. The news was especially heart breaking for us to hear because of our loss of Dan's Mother last year. Diana and her family are in our prayers and we hope she knows we are thinking of her. Losing a Mother is the hardest thing Dan and I have been through together, still going through. It has almost been a full year since Nancy's passing but it still hurts so much. Especially on the days that we share with family. It really isn't the same with her gone. But ya know what? While I was playing and cleaning and partying, I could feel her spirit. I could feel her sitting on the couch watching Zak and Layla open the presents and sing Happy Birthday and stand next to me while I finished up cleaning the party dishes. It is a very special feeling of happiness when you feel loved by someone who isn't in this life anymore. She is watching over us but by also being with us in a way I never thought possible. I love you Nancy. We sure do miss you a whole lot. You are an angel.


Layla ate 3 pieces of cake!! She was so happy!! One little thing I thought was kinda cool was when my neighbors came over by me while I was getting ready to cut the cake, one of them said to me..."Where did you buy that cake? It is so pretty and simple!" I gave her a side glance with a smirk and said, "I...made...it!!" Her eyes got so big, it was so cute! The other lady commented saying how much do you charge? I'll pay you to do my sons graduation cake! ;) When I met Nancy I had never baked a "professional cake" before. Nancy made such beautiful cakes! Her specialty was wedding cakes!! I watched her make a couple and envied the ones I saw completed. So since I have become a wife and Mother I have tried to perfect her cake art but still have yet to be satisfied. Dan says i do a good job, while my mom says my cakes look Awesome!! But she hasn't seen the perfection Nancy has made. So we'll see as time goes by, and the more practice I get. Maybe one day I could do wedding cakes. ;)

Our littlest love is turning 1!!

Yes! Layla is turning ONE this Saturday! We can't believe it! Layla is 3 days old in this picture! So precious! I miss her being a tiny baby! Well, 8lbs 11oz isn't tiny but tiny compared to her now! lol! ;)

If you haven't responded to the e-invite I sent you, please take the time to check your e-mail, even the junk mail, find it and let me know if you can make it! We will be having a ton of food and dessert. We hope to see you there!!


As I watch Layla and Zak play together I can't help it but to smile. Even if they are fighting. lol! I smile because a little angel was sent to us from heaven. But also I cry a little. I cry because we also had another angel return to heaven. Nancy hung on long enough to have the chance to meet her newest grand baby. We took Layla to see Nancy when she was just 3 weeks old, this was a Sunday. That following Friday is when Nancy couldn't fight anymore and returned to be with our Heavenly Father. Nancy got the chance to snuggle with Layla. Dan held Layla next to Nancy's cheek. Layla even moved her face closer to Nancy's cheek as if to look at her and while she did this she had her little tongue sticking out a little and ended up licking Nancy's cheek. It was a perfectly sweet moment. And that moment is the last one I have of Nancy. That was the last time I got to be with her. I miss her so much. But I know she is watching Layla grow and play from Heaven above.

Layla's first birthday will be a wonderful celebration of her birth. She gave me the strength to make it through Nancy's passing. Layla also gave me the strength to deliver her as I wanted to. I am so very proud of myself. Layla fulfilled my goal to give birth completely natural! I even "caught" her myself! And to top it off she is a booby baby! Well, a one booby baby! lol! I think I have posted some of Zak's birth story before. I had a real hard time when he was born. With the delivery and with breast infections and abscess. Nothing went as planned, thanks to my "wonderful" Doctor. OOOoooh I hate that guy! My sister is expecting a baby girl! Yay! But when she went in for her first OB appointment she had to sign a paper that consented 3 other doctors to deliver her baby if her doctor was unavailable and HE was one of those doctors!! I just about grabbed her hand and escorted her out of there! All in all she now is seeing my Doctor, the one who helped me deliver Layla. So I'm relieved and excited! She's going to try her best to go natural with me as her coach. I'll post how she does way later! Baby is due October 4th! I pray that everything works out for her.

This little rocking chair is the same rocking chair my Grandma gave to me to sit in when I was just 4 years old. So I gave it to Zak when he turned 4! He loves it so much. But when he sits in it and Layla is crawling around, she goes over to him and stands in front of him with her hands on his legs and tries to push him. Like she's trying to give him a ride. Zak gets so mad! So because he can't see his movie anymore he gets up and moves to the floor so she will stop bugging him. But she then takes off with the chair and walks it around the room. Zak sees this a gets even more angry. lol! So they were so happy when they Both got to sit in the chair together! ;)


Anyways!! I'm going to stop chatting and start my daily crazyness! Hope to see you Saturday!! ;)